Being a mother..

Some people say that being a mother at a young age is a no no, but as I see things it isn't bad after all. Being a mother to a cute little child is something wonderful. I was a mother at the age of 19 yrs old. But God has taken it away from me. I know he has a plan for me that's why he just given Baby Jaiden for  a short period of time. It was only 11 days that he was with me. A week of happiness and a week of painful memories. Seeing your baby for the first time was a wonderful feeling. I couldn't explain what I am feeling that time. But after a week of being together we rush him in the hospital. I don't know what to do, what I did wrong. I thought he was alright. I prayed to God that make him alright. But things got worst. The doctor said he is rapidly deteriorating. I cried a lot. I've questioned God that time. Why he is doing that? At 5 o'clock in the morning, he eventually leave us, it was so painful. I don't know if my life has a direction anymore. My heart is broken. But when I've seen him after taking out the tubes in his body, he is happy, he is smiling, he is like an angel and that day I've realized that he is now in peace. He is now happy wherever he is and I must let go of him. It is so painful seeing your child lifeless. But my life must go on and I must leave everything behind and be strong.  So to the mother's that lost a child, remember that everything's happen for a reason. Maybe God given this kind of struggles to make us strong and to have faith in him. I know Baby Jaiden's an angel now and he is watching me from above. HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY to all.