Hi baby! Everyday I miss you. I've recently met someone baby. Is he the one or not? Would I risk my heart again? Is it time for me to love again and not push him away. If he is the one please give me some sign. I just wanted to feel loved and I wanted to be taken care off, the way I used to do. I don't want to be taken for granted anymore. I've had enough of that already. I wanted someone to accept all my flaws and my past. I wanted a serious relationship that will make me happy and not to be a toy to be thrown away if they don't need me anymore. Baby, please help mommy to be strong and to choose the right path that I am taking. I love you baby. Visit me soon. :*

Birthday. Feelings.

Your birthday is near. I wish you we're here. Maybe if your still alive, we are already planning about your upcoming birthday. You, your dad and I. Maybe we will be happy or not. I really don't know. There's so many what if's. I'm imagining things. I can't help myself to be sad baby, and I am sorry for that. I just really miss you. I don't know if I still have feeling for your dad. I care about him and think of him sometimes, maybe i'm just over thinking things already. Could you help me to find what I am feeling for him or should I start loving someone again? Give them a chance to see what's the real me? Can you visit me in my dreams to find out the answers. I really wanted to have a peace of mind. I wanted your dad and I have a closure and to talk about things. I don't want it to be left unsaid. Advance Happy Birthday Baby Jaiden. Mommy will always love you and wait for me on next Sunday. I'll visit you. It's your birthday and your lolo's birthday.